Diary of a Tortured Artist: Painful Decisions

Ow,ow,ow,ow,OW!!!!

OMG, but the decision I had to make this week...SUCKED!!!!!!!!!!!

I had to release a regular, creative opportunity that really gave me a sense of accomplishment in the past when I did it. Sure hope it was worth it.

I am feeling the torture.  I pray the decision does not haunt me and make me angry over the circumstances that triggered it.

Tortured Toon

 Arrrrgghhhhhhhh......................................
I'm feeling too tortured to write today. So, here is a toon off of the web.

Diary of a Tortured Artist: An Introduction

Hello fellow artists out there. Feeling tortured lately?  Are you creatively frustrated?  Are the people you have relationships with "not getting you?" Do you constantly struggle with inner turmoil and conflict while directing your creative energies into successful works of art?

Rejoice! You're not alone.

According to Wikipedia these past creators have experienced your angst:


Kurt Cobain, Marilyn Monroe, F. Scott Fitzgerald, Judy Garland, Vincent Van Gogh, Ernest Hemingway,
Franz Kafka, Frida Kahlo, John Lennon, Sylvia Plath, Edgar Allan Poe, Hunter S. Thompson, and Virginia Woolf.

Such a bloody shame they met such tragic ends isn't it? Darn. Can't you just scream?

So where's the hope? The salvation from suffering the burdens of being a creative, visionary soul?

Hell if I know.

My only recourse at this point in time is to embark on a series of introspective writings (or should I say rantings) where I grapple with the dark side of being an artist. In this way I will attempt to cleanse myself of the gut wrenching places my thoughts can sometimes lead me as I strive to find a sense of creative fulfillment.

A few projects I've made with recycled wool sweaters.

This is a Wovely Wooly Whatsit. He got a tooth added after this photo was taken and is now in his new home with JC Bigornia.

 This is a friendly house elf. He will soon go to his new home.

These flowers are removeable from their stems. They convert to hairclips, or pins that can be attached to clothing. All but two are in their new homes. The hairbands are gone and I didn't take pictures, but I plan to make many more.

Goodness Gracious, Slide loving dogs!

Bilbo and Waldo love to go down the slide at the park. Here they are is some short videos.

I used the video feature on my camera.

We sure have fun with them as you can see. They keep us young!

Loco for Cocorosie!!!

These are my sisters in spirit.  I don't know any other way of expressing how much I admire these two musicians who are sisters.  They create music so incredibly original.  Their penchant for costuming themselves in completely unique ways is also very much a part of my own creative process, BUT it is one that I work at suppressing.  That said, I do very much weaken my guard and give in to wearing some odd outfits for everyday & for storytelling programs. 

Take a look at this interview if you are curious about Cocorosie. http://www.vogue.it/en/people-are-talking-about/music-theatre-cinema/2010/12/cocorosie

I listen to their music when I am creating art. If I start listening to it while doing something else, I have to stop and go create something.  Their work is responsible for my own inclusion of original sounds & music in some of the stories I perform.

Check their videos out on Youtube. Their songs can be really out there, strange, even disturbing...but, I still really love their originality and unique artistic voice.